Summmmmmer Holiday is Here!

Alhamdulillah, dah start cuti summer pun sekarang. Start summer sem 17 Jun ni. Doa2 dipermudahkan soifi yang pertama di Jordan ni,insyaAllah...

Sem dua,tahun dua sebagai pelajar Yarmouk Uni,course Islamic Banking dah pun lepas. Tak perlu cakap banyak (supaya tak guris hati mana2 pihak) muaddal ok,alhamdulillah... Tapi jatuh jugak dari sem lepas,dalam 0.8 T_T susah sangat nak maintain muaddal. Sem ni, markah ok la,alhamdulillah. Tapi dua madah dapat kepala 7. Memang x puas hati sebab itu antara madah yang tinggi carrymark tapi Allah lebih tahu..Mungkin usaha tak setimpal. Belajar tak ikhlas ke kan,huhu...

Summer holiday ni insyaAllah aku akan melawat negara Europe pulak (ceh,bajet Europe la sangat), UK dengan Paris. Paris bukan France. Sebab memang pergi Paris je,tak melawat satu France. Duit xdop,hoho..

Doakanlah perjalanan aku dengan housemates,baik2 belaka,pergi dan pulang. Semoga kami dilindungi sepanjang di sana. Aku pun tak naklah jalan2 semata2. Nak jugak kutip permata2 dari akhawat UK yg qawiy2 tu ^__^

Doakan semuanya okay. Cuak la jugak...

Moga Allah permudahkan..

I think the exam has done wrong to some wires in my head.
I'm not thinking straight, I get moody and angry easily.
=_=''
And now I've post strange status on FB and Twitter.
SO not like me.
I dont know why.
But maybe I'm just too tired and homesick.

I'm trying my best to hold myself together. I'll be okay,insyaAllah ^__^
It's not like I'm down because of exam it's more because of I've holding in too much lately..

-Praying for the best-

Undefined

Markah final,dah dua madah keluar. Satu madah tu ok la,lagi satu...hmmm...x sampai expectation =_="
Agak sedih la jugak tapi takpelah,Allah knows the best ^__^
-pura2gembirapadahaltimenitengahdown-

Penat lah kadang-kadang. Banyak jugak ujian time2 nak exam ni,demam la ==" Lepas tu,dapat berita macam-macam dari Malaysia.. Huhu...

Super Insecure

Me,being myself,is always on my own. I do not care that much if people didnt know me, I mean, I dont even know everyone.
Some of my friends,are doing so well for themselves, being busy with the student's society and such. And I,sometimes I feel like I never really move. I just stay there. Quietly.
I'm not the over-friendly type. I dont like to open up to people. Sometimes they  just dont understand.
I do LOVE my friends. They complete my life. I just dont like being too close to someone, I'm afraid they will leave me one day.

don't cry when there is nothing worth crying for

no need to cry over a spieled milk

no need to cry over someone who you knew will never come back

don't cry just because the beach have changed over the course of wave

sometimes,you are stronger but you just don't realize it

sometimes things are much easier if you just accept it with open heart

if you appreciate more,see more,you'll learn more 

:)

penat ckp dgn org yg taknak dengar pndgn orang

buat tensi dan dosa

Matang

Memang nak sangat jadi matang,lagi matang daripada sekarang.
Walaupun umur dah naik jadi 20, tapi kematangan pemikiran masih tahap budak umur 17 -rasanyalah-
Ke sebab banyak sangat bergaul degan orang umur 20++ memmbuatkan aku rasa diri sendiri tak matang?
And actually, what really defines mature? Apa yang anda tafsirkan sebagai matang?

These past few years, banyak sangat drama, with family, friends and everyone around tapi rasanya macam aku dah handle secara matang,some of it does crying consider matang?

But I've grow up. Daripada umur 17 ke 20. Ada benda yang aku rasa takkan pernah buat tapi dah buat. Benda yang aku rasa aku takkan mampu handle tapi aku dah handle pun.

Maybe without realizing it, aku dah matang,tapi sikit je la berbanding dulu,haha..

Forgive

The longer you are with someone, you'll see even the bad sides of them, the bad sides that they never show to others..

Seriously,it was like the shocker of the day. I mean, I never got scolded like that,and that is from this friend.Never ever this person used that kind of language with me,even when I'm disturbing at a very busy time...
And after that I just cant sleep. And I think I fell asleep around 3 am in the morning and I wake up with a pounding in my head. And I even didnt went to the first class for today =_="
My mood is really bad today. In the evening, I got several Whatsapp messages, from this friend asking about things I asked for help ( that I got scolded for) and at first I didnt have the mood to reply the message because I'm too angry. I even erase the reply that I have send.

And at night, suddenly I forgive this friend already and have already reply the messages -serius lemah diri sendiri,apekah-

Memang Tak Wajar

Sebagai seorang pelajar, memang lah tak wajar down lama-lama.
Hari tu, berskyeping dengan umi and abah,lebih sejam je lah. Tapi skype suara je. Malas nak on video sebab internet slow.
Dah lama sangat tak jumpa both of them. All of my siblings. Rasa homesick jugak kadang-kadang. Serius tak sabar nak balik,ya Allah..

Final lagi dua minggu T_T Rasa malas nak study sentiasa ada, mengalahkan rasa rajin tu. Apekah...
Dan dua tiga hari ni, banyak pulak Allah nak uji, nak cucuk-cucuk hati. Oh, ini memang payah. Kalau uji benda yang takde depan mata,tahan lagi. Yang mudah ada depan mata yang susah ni. Memang tercucuk jugak rasa =_=" Penat. Penat kot nak jaga hati. Padahal benda dah lepas. Tapi kalau terus macam ni sampai bila-bila pun takkan lepas.