Worst Time Ever

I just want to run away,can I?
I dont even have the strength to think anymore.
I think now is almost the longest time that I didnt speak more than ten words in more than 4 hours.
I barely said anything.
That's because I'm lost for words.
I feel bad for feeling bad about people around me.

I reallly REALLY really want to run away.
It's like I'm almost at my limit.
I cant go on anymore.
Seriously.
I may hate myself more than I hate people around me.

Selfish yes I am.
But I dont know what to do.
SO yes,I'm maybe really going to run away..

Recently

Life has been pretty hectic! The start of new sem, I'm officially third year now,alhamdulillah..
Feel a little bit scared because sometimes I dont even know if I'm fully prepared or not. Mentally, I dont think I'm fully prepared. There are just so many problems,so many things to think off =_="

Praying that everything will be okay,may Allah ease everything.
Going to Amman tomorrow to visit a citadel! Feel a lil bit excited and scared at the same time but I know that Allah knew what we are doing and it's for the best. May Allah ease everything tomorrow..

Even though I'm third year already, I still feel homesick *sigh*
That's supposed to be a secret ;)

Erm,yeah, I'm not good at writing..

Wassalam..

ps: will turn 20 soon :)