meng'hupdate'blog sgt best dr study!siyes la~

 time holiday ngn parents kt frasers hills

hoho,bunge sangat cantek :D

 gmbr yg sgt gedik!ahaks!time mude2 di msia

msih di frasers hills

 my lil sis,kakti,and me

oho,crazy times with my cuzzy,miss her soo much

 this was on her birthday,my cuzzy

i'm wearing contact lens,muke sgt pelik @_@

 seriously,haha,gmbr ni mmg lwk dan giler

dunno why

i'm not a gud poser

so gmbr mcm org giler

haha

 haha,at my other cuzzy's birthday party,muke xcted dpt goody bags

sgt kanak2 ribena XD

 at our family member's wedding

haha

me,kakti and hariz

i miss them all three

my feeling now~wanna hug them tight,except hariz,haram yer,haha*

 gmbr da lmer

da kt jordan

kt oxygen juice

muke kt jordan rse mcm lbih suci

dan kudus

haha

pasan~da kurg unsur gedik kot 0_o

salam...

sory,ats byk gmbr di msia

sje nk imbau kenangan

weyh,mmg siyes ckp,sgt best menghupdate blog wpon xde org bace

aku lg suke xde org bace so ni ala2 mcm pvt diary aku la

suke2!!! *clap*

haha,kanak2 riang ria raye minum ribena

stop mngarut,dush!

hoho,skrg rmai da taw aku suke stalk blog dorg,oh yeah

aku sgt suke stalkering blog org,sgt best

mybe sbb aku rse life aku buhsan,xde bnde nk bwt,like siyes,aku nyer keje sharian,study and dpn lptop

mkn dan tido and i was like,'ah,bosan!!!"

x sbr nk abes final and after that,pergi MESIR!!!

ok,mesir je pn,x glemer pn tp x kesah la

jnji dpt berjalan wpun hnye utk tgk firaun

dan makan UDANG!!!!!!!wah,aku rindu udang

aku suke giler udang,mmg cinte sjati la

aku smpai nk gado2 ngn sorg 'dr msir' ni sbb sgt x aci die dpt mkn udang and aku tak

*aku x kesah,ko kne blnje udang!!!!byr ngn duit anda eh???eh????sponsor kite same so duit msti byk gk kan???kn???mekasih kt papa JPA*

pasal stalk blog tu,dun worry,aku stalk blog je,aku x stalk pmilik blog tu

xde keje

dun worry,aku study arini ok

dr kul 12 smpai 5

nk pecah kepale

x sbr nk abes exam!pastu cuti!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy new year everyone!! :D

aku da tua,a 19 taon,mcm da jd makcik =='

haha,matang la sikit bak kate dr mesir

ps:rindu kt sume kwn2 kt mesir,rumete and ex-schoolmate and ex-crush*gurau je*

ngek tol r,ngarut je

wassalam...

ps:sory,unsur mengarut mlmpau krn pnt study~~~~

makcik,study la utk final!!!!!!!!asal ko mls sgt neh???

salam...
nk tnye ni,asal mkcik bernama SITI HANUM BINTI SIRA JUDDIN ni sangat la SUPER DUPER MALAS bler smpai time nk blaja??????????????
FINAL EXAM isnin ni la mkcik,sedar cket ulum quran pn x sntuh lg.mabadi pn bru 60 percent sntuh
ceh,x gune r ko ni.g study.say babai kt intrnet.
kan ko da thn diri,x usik handphone hntr msg sume kt sume org trutamenyer SUME ORANG
ko nk ke bnde dlu berulang????nk nanges lg time dpt result  ulum???xnk kan???
pikir sndiri la

monolog dalaman yg x brksudahan~~
SILA LA STUDY SAYANG OI,INGATLAH ORANG TERSAYANG

target:habiskan mabadi smpai tajuk hitob doman
start ulum utk tjuk2 bru

insyaALLAH kher :D
ps:kat atas ade lah SEPATUTNYA mood aku sekarang=STUDY!!!!!

saya sayang mereka dan rindu mereka sgt2!!

salam..

wpun bru je post td,tp aku x kesah,nk post gk lg

ni kan blog aku,so suke ati dan jantung aku la kan?? ;)

smlm,smbil pgang handphone,tgk gmbr abah

waaaa.....RINDU!!!!!!

kalau umi,lg la jgn ckp,RINDU GLER2!!!!!

perasaan RINDU ni,klau nk xpress ngn kate2 pn,mmg sush,x trungkap

RINDU kt WAJAH,SUARE, and sume bnde pasal org yg kter rindu

RINDU gk kt hanis,ahmad,syukur,mak,tok mek,tok ayh,dayah,zati,hani,kirah,nas,arep,adk ezma and sume org la

ish,x suke la feeling2 ni

aku kan perkasa

 family yg aku chentai <3 gmbr time raye aritu,huhu

 adk bdek yg dichentai,rindu nk gado ngn adk2,mane lak adk bngsu aku,mnghilang dr gmbo nih

 brgambr ngn abah,abah,hanum RINDU!!!!rindu nk abah marah hanum bile hanum malas or rse nk giveup,huhu...

the only man that i LOVE so much,because he is THE ONE who always support me,no matter what happen,always PRAY for my success,GIVE me LOVE and MONEY,hehe,without asking for anything back,ACCEPT me FULLY for the way i am.

mane lg nk crik cmni??hanya ABAH sorg je ^__^

hehe...post ni lbih kpd rase RINDU kt family and ABAH

to UMI and ABAH,please know that i LOVE YOU GUYS WITH ALL MY HEART

perang mendapatkan subjek!!

salam...

semalam,kami2 student 1st year kuliah syariah yarmoouk melalui perang yg sangat getir,utk tsjil madah

or dlm bhse melayu yg mudah difhmi,dftr subjek utk sem 2

ktorng student kuliah syariah yg last skali tsjil so kebanyakan subjek da ttup or syukbah@kelas da pnuh

kat yarmouk ni gune sistem student bole plih sndiri sbjek per yg die nk ambk,plih dr and plih wktu yg kite nk utk kelas tu

ade pro and cons utk care ni

bestnyer sbb dpt pilih sndiri sbjek yg ktorng nk,plih dr and ttpkan wktu kelas

tp yg x ebstnyer,bole jd kter x dpt sbjek sbb syukbah da byk pnuh n ttup 

alhamdulillah,dr 5 sbjek yg aku nk,aku dpt 4 =)

mule2 tu aku tgk sume sbjek da ttup so biar je la dpt 4 sbjek pn

tp tbe2,trdgr org arab ckp ader sbjek dibkk blek

aku ngn pntsnyer check blik and alhamdulillah,mule2 tu tmbh 2 sbjek,then tolak balik and tmbh lak 2 sbjek yg lain,jd la sumenyer 6 sbjek

rsau gk sbb sume sbjek wajib

dr 6 sbjek tu,5 sbje eknmi,1 je sbjek agame

cuak gk,tkot taon dpn time thn 2 jdual sush lak

tp try je la,insyaALLAH kher :D

sdih bile dgr kwn2 yg x dpt sbjek

aku doakan yg trbaik utk korg sume

alhamdulillah,ktorng yg tsjil kt makmal di bngunn khawarizmi dpt 5 or 6 sbjek

thanks utk akk2 snior,kak syida n kak ainun yg da byk tlg smlm =)

kwn2 yg lain,try r tgk sume sbjek,mane taw tbe2 bukak

nk taw sbjek per aku dpt???jom2~~

1.Madkhol Ila Tasyri' مدخل الى التشريع

2.Mabadi Iqtisod Islami مبادئ الاقتصاد الاسلامى

3.Iqtisod Duali الاقتصاد الدولى

4. Mabadi Iqtisod Kulli مبادئ الاقتصاد كلى

5.Mabadi FI Muhasabah مبادئ فى التحاسبة

6.Mabadi Iqtisod Riyadi مبادئ في الاقتصاد الرياضى

wpun jadual mcm pack dan berat sbb habis kul 5 ptg,tp i'll try my best,insyaALLAH,moge dipermudahkan...

selamat tinggal utk kau,aku sudah x sabar nk brsama 'dia' yang bru :D

sudah lama aku bersamamu tp masa trasa bgaikan skejap berlalu

pejam celik,sudah setahun kita bersama

banyak kenangan yg kita bina bersama,pahit,manis,tawar,masam smuanya ada

stiap kali ku kenang,adakalanya ku ktawa sndiri,mnangis sndiri mcm org gila

aku paham,yang masa mncmburui kita,x ingin biar kita bersama lebih lama

detik yang berlalu,menandakan semakin singkat masa kita bersama

walaupun aku tahu kau mungkin cemburu,ttpi aku dlm diam,tidak sabar menantikan ketibaan 'dia'

kekasih hatiku yg baru

yg akan menemaniku slps ini

kepada kau,trima kasih krn stia brsamaku

wlaupun kau akan ku tinggalkan,kenangan bersamamu ttp kekal di ingatan

krn bersamamu,aku merasa pengalamn di tmpt baru,di negara orang

brsamamu aku mengenali orang baru

sungguh aku syg pdmu ttpi hatiku sudah terpaut pada 'dia'

aku x sbr mahu hidup bersama 'dia'

brsama harapan baru yg 'dia' bawa bersama

maafkan aku...

doakan aku...

selamat tinggal kepada kau:

2010

dan selamat datang kepada kau:

2011!!!!

boleh kita berkenalan????? :D

ps:haha,jgn trpedaya dgn ayt2 sblomnyer

hanya luahan hati tntg 2010 yg akan brlalu...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

exam lg!!!makcik,g study!!

salam...

tjuk entry khas utk diri sndiri yg mls nk mmpos study pdhl final da dkt,around da corner

mlm td mnghbeskan study tjuk hitob doman ngn teng aka fatin

3 jam utk study satu tjuk je,pergh!dugaan blaja dlm arab

kelas utk sem ni da abes

pasni da x jmpe dr ibrahim ubadah and dr mansur abu zinah lg

cdey lak!

suke sgt blaja ngn dua2 dr ni

rser brsyukur ngn sume ilmu yg aku dpt dr dorg

smoge ilmu tu diberkati =)

adk aku,hanis tnye knp cni byk sgt exam

aku pn xtaw

aku pn x suke asyk exam je

tp blaja kt cni,alhamdulillah,best :D

rbu ni tsjil madah,tkot!! @_@

akak snior ckp,mcm nk berperang

doakan aku dpt sbjek yg aku nk,insyaAllah...

gud luck utk aku yg nk exam

(^0^)

saje ltk gmbr2 mngarut kt bwh =p

wassalam...

 slh satu sbjek jamiah yg aku amk,Mabadi Masorif Islami

sory buku mcm belacan yg dibuat oleh Alia Sakinah

tu mknenyer rjin study

ceh,tipu je

 gmbr kt dpn mrkz lughoh

xde keje katekan

haha

gmbr low quality sbb gne kamera hp

2 megapixel je mmg r udoh gmbr

mls nk bwk kmera dgital

 gmbr poyo konon2 mcm dlm msim sjuk yg sjuk

pdhl x sjuk sgt pn

suam2 suku je

 gmbr ngn my rumete,cik ALIA SAKINAH AHMAD TERMIZI

poyo mcm sjuk pdhl x pown

haha

ala2 kt uk kan??kan???kan???

ps utk dri sndiri:g study r,jgn main computer mkcik!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rindu sangat pada kamu

 

yang bername snowbell

gmbr kuceng aku yg comel....

mcm mat saleh kan?mate biru :D

bell,rndunyer nk peluk and cium die~~

owh,tunggu bulan 6 taon dpn~~~~

aku adalah aku

salam...xtaw per mkne tjuk post di atas sbnrnye,tiada tujuan

2,3 hari lepas,sgt2 la sdih thp gaban mcm kmatian suami

sbbnyer,dr mansur da bg markah Ulum Quran

dan mrkh sgt x best =='

x tipu dan tiade unsur hiperbola di sini

ni sume trjd bkn sbb x study tp sbb tbe2 tr'blank' time exam

siyes,mmg x tipu

blank dlm erti kate sbnrnyer iaitu x dpt ingt paper pn

wpun kwn2 cbe tngkan,aku mcm nk ckp je,

'korg xde kt tmpt aku,klu korg jd cmtu,korg pn msti sdih kan??kan??'

aku rse brslh kt parents

rse mcm ank yg x bgus

parents ari2 doakan,aku lak bg mrkah x best dlm exam

after a while,da brtng

final da dkt,kne buat da best!

rndu kt family~~

ps:tbe2 rse xnk ambk soifi

nk blek msia lmer2 sket :D 

nk mntk dr mnsur markah lbih

doa2 dpt~

wassalam....

kuatkan semangat aku yg semakin rapuh ni...

semakin hari,semakin lemah semangat yg ada

hari2 diteruskan dengan berbekalkan semangat yg tipis

niat krn ALLAH dan ibu bapa yg mmberikan harapan

selain tu,xde...

KOSONG

sehinggakan sering tertanya2

'betul ke keputusan aku ni?'

i didnt do it for myself but for others and in the time of hardship like this,i dont know where to turn or lean on

ALLAH,helps me,gives me spirit to move on...

insyaALLAH

exam final yg x ku nanti!!!

salam...

update 2 kali sbb aku gedik dan xde keje
pdhl bak kate title,exam final da dkt,huhu..

aku rser msti rmai yg pelik,knp byk gilos or dlm arb nyer,kethir jiddan

kat sini,care pmblajaran exam oriented

exam ader 3 kali dlm 1 sem

1 sem plus minus bhgi drb tmbh tolak log sume lbih kurg 4 bulan

kt sini xde assignment yg brlmbk2 mcm kt msia *jeles ngn dak msia,x aci!nk assignment gk*

xde presentation *aku da la suke presentation*

and mrkah utk satu sem tu 90 peratus from exam...

bygkan,mrkh thunn mmg brgntung pd imtihan

mmg aku mcm 'BAPAK LA,SUSAH GAK CAMNIH" =='

aku da tgk jadual exam final kat SIS *laman web utk student yarmouk*

pas tgk je,aku trus jerit ala2 nk gile and sawan sikit,sebab....sebab....

sbjek mabadi masorif islami and ulum quran exam on the same day

and aku mcm,'giler kentang goreng garing jd batoto'

susah gileeerrrrrrrrrr bapak kot kalau final and then 2 sbjek lak dlm shari

and imtihan tu awal lak tu,3 dec

td skype ngn umi from umah akk senior

ala2 nk nges sbb rsau ngn keadaan exam tp alhadulillah,umi byk bg dorongan

umi ckp,'xpe,hanum boleh buatnye.ALLAH bg sume bnde tu ader hikmah die.umi doakan hanum hari2 taw'

so,have to try my best =D

ihsan dalam blajar

blajar mcm ALLAH nampak sgale usaha kite

insyaALLAH,smoge dipermudahkan...

bittaufiq wannajah utk sume yg nk final

ps:sory byk prkataan bpk,x sopan sgt

jangan kamu berkata kamu sudah beriman

sedangkan kamu tidak diuji

wassalam...

story di markaz lughoh,hormati la cikgu kite weyh

salam..

tajuk entry x bole blah,mcm mengarut pun ader tp xpe la

straight to the main point

mcm sume taw*pdhl xtaw*,1st sem kt yarmouk uni ni,aku ambk kls MARKAZ LUGHOH dulu

kelas ni khas utk org luar yg bkn arab yg nk blaja kt cni

bler mule2 smpai dlu,b4 bole tsjil madah*dftr subjek*,ktorng kne amk exam dlu

exam utk mnntukan thp kter kt mrkz lughoh tu

klu kter dpt thp mustawa robi ba,xyh g mrkz lughoh pn xpe,nk g pn bole

tp klu g,bole ambk 2 sbjek je kt jamiah*klu x g bole ambk min 4,max 6 sbjek*

alhamdulillah,biiznillah aku lps

tp aku buat kputusan nk ambk

skrg tnggl lg smnggu je mrkz lughoh

rser mcm cpt btul mase brlalu

tp aku x bper nkpuas ati ngn bbrape classmates aku,yg syabab shj yer

sbbnyer,nk taw knp???

dorg buat mrkz lughoh tu mcm bapak dorg pnyer

suke ati je nk dtg bler

klu x suke sbjek or dr tu,dorg x dtg

ok,aku akui dlu aku pn pnh nk kluar dr mrkz lughoh n at first rser mcm mnyesal join pn ader 

tp aku xdpt kuar sbb klu kuar kne byr yuran pnuh so aku buat kputusan stay je la

aku pn jahat dulu,kdg2 mls nk g kls tp aku da mnyesal

and skrg aku g je

except klu aku tbe2 ader exam aritu

mslhnyer,ader sorg mamat sengal ni,aku x taw la aper mslh die

die x kuar dr mrkz lughoh tp slalu x dtg

klu dtg pn,satu kelas je,istima pastu blah

smpaikan dr2 yg ajr ktorng pn da taw

aklu taw ader dr yg trase

smlm,mamat sengal ni dtg kls istima

dr ala perli die

ckp r,'awk  ni mcm bln purnama.dlm sbulan skali dua je sy nmpk muke awk'

psnn aku kt mamat sengal ni:

weyh,aku taw r ko pndai,FINE

tp per hak ko buat cmtu?dorg tu ttp ckgu ko k

klu kter skitkan ati ckgu kter,dosa kan?

ko ingt kuliah jamiaah je yg pnting?

klu ckgu mrkz lughoh ko x redha ngn ko,smer gk

so baik ko insaf cpt2

mntk maaf cpt2 ngn dktor2 mrkz lughoh

xtaw la nk ckp per

aku pn pnh jd ckgu

aku pnh trase ngn ank murid aku so aku taw cmner dr mrkz lughoh rser

aku pn byk slh ngn ckgu mrkz lughoh gk

smtimes x siapkan keje sume

asifah jiddan dktur~

the rest is story

wassalam

sory klu bhse agk kasar

mood yg kejap baik and kejap tak

salam...

stlh lmer x mngupdate,skrg bru smpt mngupdate,scare live dr rumah rahilmg

sblh kdai simsimah

2,3 arini,mule2 sedih...then...happy...then....sedih...then...happy

ala2 mood swing la

mcm buaian tu

knp tibe2 happy?

krn bru pas mkn halawiyat bername kinafah naimah???
haha,sdp weyh,skali mkn mmg x pasan kalau mak mentua lalu bak kate aku kpd alia sakinah

tidak2

ari khamis ni,exam ULUM QURAN!

tkot!!sbb x ready lg!argh!!!

*nk g study pasni*

wish me luck,supaye bittaufiq wannajah =)

skrg kt Jordan da winter,sjuk gler

Ajloun and Muktah da ader salji

jumaat ni plan nk g Ajloun main salji

best2 =D

skian shj update pndek dr aku,off to study~~

exam datang lagi!!!

salam..

aku mengupdate smbil mmbaca tjuk riba utk exam Mabadi Masorif Islami yg akan brlangsung scara langsung di Jamiah Yarmouk,8 Disember 2010 ni.same2 la kite nantikan

haha

xtaw knp,exam kali ni trase agk tnsion

mngkin krn x sure tjuk per yg msuk and tjuk yg msuk pn mcm lbih brt dr tjuk2 sblum ni

xpe2,dugaan mnjadikan kite kuat,insyaALLAH..

*kan da ckp xnk sdih2 or pkir negative kan??? ;) *

U CAN DO IT HANUM! HWAITING (^0^)

rsau sbb smlm mnghbiskan 3 jam mmbace tjuk mudharabah,musyarakah msih x sntuh,riba pn x hbis2

tkut!

doakan lah boleh buat yg trbaik utk exam kali ni dan akan dtg,amin....

gud luck gk utk sume kwn2 aku yg akan sme2 exam rabu ni,

Aliyah,Hasanah,Fatin dan Kak Zarryfah

insyaALLAH smoga smua dipermudahkan ALLAH,amin...

ps:byk brdoa dlm post kali ni sbb sgt cuak

tjuk imtihan thani utk Ulum Quran sgt byk! 

SUPER TAKUT!!!

sementara internet msih laju

salam...

sbnrnye xde paper idea pn utk mnulis

sje mngupdate smntara intrnet sakan sahawneh@sakan jpa msih laju

exam Mabadi Masorif Islami yg kedua da dkt!

lg 3 hari n bru nk start study =_='

ape la nk jd kan

plan nk study,trupdate blog pulak

skrg da bln 12,da dkt 3 bln kt Jordan

rase RINDU msih lg mmbuak2

iyer la,org x pnh dduk hostel

RINDU SANGAT2 kat FAMILY and KAWAN2

bln satu cuti sem

rmai blik msia

sbb cuti dkt sbulan and tiket flight murah

smtimes trase mcm nk balik gk

tp rsau klau da blik,smngt nk pulang ke Jordan luntur pulak

exam Ulum Quran yg kedua 16 Disember,Mabadi Masorif Islami 8 Disember

kne buat elok2 agar mrkh lbih gmpak dr dlu

insyaALLAH...

x mahu sdih2,hnya mlunturkan smgt je

bak kata ALIA SAKINAH AHMAD TERMIZI,roomate aka mak tiri aku

NO MAN NO CRY

haha

lwak~

adakah krn kisah patrick???

just forgive and forget

the rest is history~

saya rindu negara di atas

sape setuju???

say ALHAMDULILLAH and SMILE =D

salam...

brtmu lg dan hari ni aku xnk buat entry brbaur sedih or negative

hari ni,nk cuba brfikir and rasa lbih positive!

yeah!hwaiting!

sjak dtg Jordan ni,mmg byk btul dugaan and masalah yg dtg

lps satu,satu lg mslh

tp mybe silap aku gak.after every musibah and problems,aku sptutnyer muhasabah diri aku

ape yg kurg and ape silap yg aku buat kan

lg byk mslh,lg dekat kita dgn ALLAH,btul x?

so,pd hari yg mulia ni,aku just nk ajk kite sume rmai2,ckp ALHAMDULILLAH

a very simple word but can bring a lot of differences to your day

dgn ckp ALHAMDULILLAH,kita akan kenang ape nikmat yg ALLAH bg kt kita hari ni

dpt bgun tidur,brnafas and masih hdup pn satu nikmat

sume bende yg ade kt skeliling kita adalah nikmat

mmg,time sush kita x nmpk smua tu

kita x nmpk ape yg lbih sbb sbuk mnilai ape yg kurg

and dont forget to SMILE =D

snyum and sengih lebar mcm kerang busuk smpai org pn naik mnympah tgk korg

HAHA

bler kita snyum,sbnrnyer scara x lgsg,mood pn jd lain skit

tp snyum tu biarlah IKHLAS

x ikhlas,sush gk kan

sblum undur diri,just nk pesan kt smua org and diri aku sndiri;

APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE TODAY BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WILL LOSE TOMORROW

AND SAY AGAIN,ALHAMDULILLAH...

SENYUM ITU SEDEKAH

ps: sush nk dpt pahala free,so,jom senyum =D

the forgettable me...always NOW and FOREVER

salam...

the title did sound weird a lil bit right?

but i know deeply the meaning of it

about me,i'm not the type of person who are easy to approach

so if i ever approach you first,then you are LUCKY :)

it doesnt meant that i dont know how to make friends

NO!nothing like that

it's just that,it's hard for people to know the real me

they always know the STRICT,SERIOUS me that they saw from outside

i always hear things like;

'owh,i didnt know that you are like that at all'

'you look different from the first time i saw and talk to you'

'why you look really cold from outside?"

yeah,hear it many times

it just that,i took longer time to become close with anyone new

but i do LOVE meeting NEW FRIENDS!

it's a fantastic thing!

i admit that i'm not the famous type of person

and i'm often forgotten by my friends

such like i dont exist

and they never bother to ask what my opinion

and always listen to what other people told about me

it hurts my feelings a lot

this kind of things has happen SO MANY TIMES before

ex: all my friends are discussing about going somewhere

and i said 'hey,i want to go too,let's go together!'

the others said: 'okay,that's cool!'

then other friends ask : 'hey,are u going there?i'm goin but on X day.the others are going on X days.u want to join me or them?'

i answer: 'i'll go with them'

tomorrow,the other friends ask again: 'are you going to that place?i'm  not going'

i said: 'i'm not going,sorry.i'll go on X days with others'

then suddenly,on X days,someone from the others call and asked me about a place in X place and i answer ' i dont know.hey,you guys are going to X place tomorrow or not?'

the others answer: 'we are already there la,eh,that person told me you dont want to go.'

BAM!the shocked of hearing that

i said: ' i never said that.i DO WANT TO GO!but with u guys,not here.i've told before,right??nevermind...'

the thing is,it never is nevermind with me

i DO CARE!they always treat me like that.saying that they forgot to ask me,or saying that they hear from someone else that i'm not going.why they never bother to CALL and CONFIRM it with me?

why hear from someone else?now that they already know how to go,just tossed me aside.like i'm an outsider,didnt exist at all

why i'm always being the one forgotten?

this thing happen so many time before.and it hurt my heart so much

MY FRIENDS,IF YOU REALLY DO CALL ME YOUR FRIEND,

PLEASE TREAT ME BETTER,DONT FORGET BOUT ME

AND JUST COME TO ME IF YOU WANT ANY FAVOR OR HELP

AND LET ME ALONE WHEN YOU GUYS ARE HAVING FUN

I'M HAVING MANY PROBLEMS BUT NONE OF U COME TO ME AND ASK ME IF ANYTHING IS WRONG WITH ME OR NOT

ARE YOU REALLY CONSIDERING YOURSELF AS MY FRIEND????

dont wanna say more,the rest is history

i'm FORGETTING and FORGIVING,

like what i ALWAYS DO..

what is considered as a MUSLIMAH @ SOLEHAH

salam...

tgk gmbr2 kt ats ni,comel2 je sume

ni la yg org slalu gmbrkan sbg WANITA SOLEHAH @ MUSLIMAH

aku punya ilmu x la brlmbak2

dan entry aku ni hanya lah utk sharekan my feeling

smtimes,there are several of my friends who always judge someone else based on;

ehem,APPEARANCE

apparently,if you wear 'tudung labuh','purdah' and 'baju kurung' all the time

you'll be labeled as Muslimah or Solehah

so,actually,do you judge people based on their appearance or personality???

aku mmg x perfect,tu aku akui

i've so many flaws and imperfections that sometimes i ashamed to look at myself

sbbnye,byk sgt kkurngn aku

aku jauh sgt dr gelaran2 tu

Muslimah or Solehah

but i try to change so that i can be in that category

aku try change luar and dlm

appearance and personalituy

but people around me is so judgemental that it's hard for me to change

kdg2 aku trase gk bler yg buat aku down and lemah semangat nk brubah

adalah kwn aku sndiri

some of them look at me,and said something about my appearance,what i wear

just want to tell,whatever i'm wearing in Jordan

are 2 times better than what i'm wearing in Msia

and sometimes,ader stgh kwn aku

bler tgk org pkai tdung lbuh,purdah sume,dorg tu Solehah

aku x nafikan,some of them really good

but kter tgk luar je,tahu ke kter ape yg ader kt dlm??

TUDUNG x mlmbgkan akhlak seseorg

BAJU KURUNG and PURDAH pn sme

some of them,x jg akhlak swjrnyer dgn imej yg dorg bwk

sbg mnusia,spe la kter nk judge org lain?

DONT EVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER

of course la,klau org tu baik,msti pnmpilan die pn sme

tp pnmpilan baik x smstinye akhlak baik

sbb tu aku x brni brubh hundred percents

tkot x istiqamah sbb brsme imej tu,aku kne tnjukkan akhlak yg baik skali

so pade sape2 yg suke judge org,TOLONG la jgn buat cmtu

tp pndg dorg ngn HATI TERBUKA!

kalau korg da memang BAIK,MUSLIMAH and SOLEHAH,

keep it up :)

aku bangga sangat2 tgk org cmtu

sbb aku nk sgt2 jd cmtu

korg yg trgolong dlm golongan tu lak

jgn pinggirkan org cam aku

jgn pndg rndah tp sme2 la ajk ktorng ke arah yg sama

arah yg benar,YANG DIREDHAI ALLAH...

insyaALLAH...

ps: no hard feelings k?

ni luahan hati aku je

PEACE NO WAR ^__^

it's really easy to pretend

salam..

it's already 12am,it means that now is a new day already

have class tomorrow,Markaz Lughoh and i still didnt finish the homework

dont have mood to do so

*sory Dr Ruba*

my status on fb are making some of my friends eager,wants to know what problem i really have

but the problem is,i cant tell them

even talk about it make me felt like crying

so i do what i do best

i PRETEND to be HAPPY :)

pretending is easy because up until now,no one know what's going on inside my heart

sometimes i feel like my heart hurt so much it might explodes!

so many things happened around me and i didnt know which one is worse or better than the other

i dont know what make me stay strong

maybe DOA from my parents

and my thoughts that always think,ALLAH knows the best for us

so for now,when i'm still okay,still can pretend and somehow hope the pretend will become a reality,

i want to:

say thanks to ALLAH for giving me ALL the things i have today;a wonderful parents,wonderful friends,a good and happy life and for giving me another day to live,to breathe

say thanks to ALLAH,because i still have all the things that i love,all the things that i care

say thanks to ALLAH for EVERYTHING he gave me

even the good things and some hardness

because that is the things that make who am i right now

THANKS ALLAH

* i'm not pretending this time,it really came from my heart*

trying to spend some free time,find a way to heal a heart

salam..

third update for today!

haha,what an accomplishment *yay to me!*

maybe it happens because i'm too excited with my new layout

*i cant stop viewing my blog like SERIOUSLY! it was just a blog! XD *

this is the early day of December..

still,there is no look of Syita coming through,just feeling a lil bit cold,cold like in Cameron Highland and not like at oversea,like in JORDAN,if you know what i mean *which i guess u didnt*

but pakcik told me that his place,back in United Kingdom has started snowing and he tell me that it's not good actually because you will feel freaking cold and stuff and i told him;

'oh,is that right?then i'm grateful it's not snowing here :) '

*pakcik is my old friend,practically several years older than me,we fight a lot and that's why i call him pakcik,to show him that he is after all,OLD.haha.*

just have finished checking out Yarmouk's students portal and checking out my exam's mark

especially for Mabadi Masorif Islami because my dear friend told me that our beloved Dr,give bonus mark to everyone so I try to check it out.my mark is good enough before this so practically Dr wont give me any bonus mark but then i saw it and BAM!

Dr do GIVE me EXTRA MARKS!!

and it means i got FULL MARKS!

alhamdulillah...

i'll try better after this,for imtihan thani,insyaALLAH...

from what i write,i look like i'm happy right?not much actually...

i'm practically DEPRESSED like crazy with my Ulum Quran's exam's marks

i'm sad because 'that person' are ignoring me without reasons,and have changed alot and i'm like, 

I DONT CARE ANYMORE ABOUT U,OK?EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT'S A LIE BECAUSE I JUST CARE!

and then,the real thing that have been affecting me alot this week,a news that shock me so much that it broke my heart.things that i really hope wont never happen.i didnt share about it with anyone at all because i'm afraid i'll cry like crazy so i'm just saying my prayer,hoping that everything will be okay,insyaALLAH...

ps:writing in english to improved my skills,which are not being used here AT ALL!

i just dont KNOW what to do,haha..

my feelings for now;

Kau Yang Aku Sayang ^__^

 salam..

asal tbe2 tjuk cmtu kan?

mcm pelik je

ni bknnyer post utk ltk gmbr laki,pastu aku tulis,

'aku cinta dia'bagai

x bnr sme skali

aku bkn bgitu

tp post ni utk mngingati org2 yg aku syg 

yg sangat2 aku RINDU

yg mostly nyer ade kt Malaysia

so,jom kter countdown

 

 ok,ni adk aku n aku

adk aku,hanis yg smemangnyer sgt2 aku SAYANG

aku ngn dy mmg rpt sbb jrk umur pn dkt

beza 2 thn je

mmg snyi sgt kt Jordan ni sbb die xde

aku sntiase doa die g Jordan gk satu hari nty

haha

bler aku kt cni,aku rsau klu die rpt ngn org lain kt Msia

jeles taw!

 haha,yg cntik jelita dlm gmbr pkai bju ungu ni akk sdara aku

aku pnggil kakti

name dy natasya noordin

spupu yg sgt2 aku SAYANG gak

aku ngn die mmg rpt dr kcik,wpun jrak umur ktorng 5 thn

time aku nk fly,die brsush payah dtg airport

mmg aku trharu gler

aku rndu sgt nk bork2 ngn die

huhu

 ni pulak gmbr family aku

aku sgt RINDU and SAYANG each one of them

spnuh hati aku

dorg la sumber kkuatan aku

tnpe dorg,aku bole MATI

serius ni

hehe...

 ni lak gmbr aku ngn cousin2 aku

haha

msty korg plik,knp byk sgt gmbr aku ngn fmily?

xde kwn ke?

bkn xde tp aku ni family type of person 

so fmily no 1 b4 kwn yer

cuzzy aku,yg mmg aku syg and rindu

x sbr nk jmpe korg blik taon dpn

 ni lak,gmbr ank2 murid aku

aku prnh mngajar pas spm aritu

dlm sbulan lbih

aku rndu sgt kt dorg ni

aku jnji nk jmpe dorg blik b4 fly tp x smpt nk tunaikan jnji tu

sory sgt!!

ni lak,bestfriend aku sjk kcik

bestfriend aku dnia akhirat

aku knl die sjk aku mule knl dunia

ni bkn statement hiperbola tp mmg bnr sbnr-bnrnyer

tringt time gdo2

mse kcik dulu

haha

wlau paper pn jd,aku sgt sayang kt die

nur hidayah binti suhaidi

aku x smpt jmpe die sgt b4 fly

tp insyaALLAH,aku akan luangkan byk mse ngn die

bler blik brcuti nty

 ni lak,nor izzati bt jahini

lg sorg bestfren aku yg amat2 la aku syg

yg x prnh mnghampakan aku

slalu dgr kluh kesah aku

pdhl aku,slalu xde time die sdih

zati,sory!!

whatever hppen,i still love u la :)

 ni lak,siti nur halimah bt md khair

roomate aku slame 4 bln kt INTEC

die skrg blaja kt Mesir,Dentistry

and aku lak kt Jordan

sdih sgt kne brpisah ngn die

aku syg gler2 roomate aku yg baik and comel ni

rndu nk brgosip ngn die

die pn slalu dgr kluh ksh aku

mmg trbaik r emah =D

 ni lak nabihah mokhtar

org kedua aku knl kt INTEC

blaja kt Jordan gk

wpun x sme kls mahu pn rumah,tp aku ttp syg kt die

xtaw nape

x kesah r klu dy x syg aku pn

yg pnting,aku sayang die ^__^

 ni lak gmbr aku ngn kwn2 skola menengah aku

yg brsame aku brjuang slame 5 thn

kt tgh tu ustazah pndidikan syariah islamiah aku,

ustazah salmiah

ustzh mmg best sgt,keibuan

rndu ustzh!

dr kiri tu,rahil,kirah,ustzh,aku n sarah

rahil,kirah n sarah mmg bestfren aku kt skola mngh

antre org pling aku syg r kt skola tu

=D

 ni gmbr kt Jordan,kt Yarmouk Uni

ni lak kwn2 MEC aku yg aku knl kt INTEC

mmg aku sgt2 la SAYANG dorg sume ni

dorg da mcm fmily aku

lg2 bler kt Jordan ni

dr kiri,nabilah,aku,daia,radiah,najihah,syera,aqilah n afi

 ni pn kwn2 MEC aku

gmbr time kt INTEC,dpn KOLEJ CEMARA

rndu gler kt INTEC

gmbr b4 dis xde sume org

ni hmpir sume org ader

yg xde dlm gmbr b4 dis,alia and teng and mardiana

ni r classmate 5 karomah aku

mmg aku sgt sayang ngn dorg

most of them classmate aku sjk form 1

da lmer aku x jmpe dorg

time ni ader jmuan kls

bler lg la nk jmpe dorg pasni

rndu nyer aku kt korg!!!

ni lak,org yg dah jg aku sjk aku kcik

aku pnggil die mak

mak ni nanny aku

die jg aku bler umi*mak aku* g keje

mmg aku rapat gler2 ngn mak

time nk fly,mmg mnangis gler time ngn mak

*pdhl ngn umi pn x mngis cmtu*

wah,mak,hanum rindu gler

nk mkn mknn mak msk!

scare x lgsg,tamat la snarai aku

sbnrnyer,rmai lg org yg aku syg

tp aku x jmpe gmbr n x smpt nk mntion

antrenyer adk ezma,arep,pijan,nas,hani,miss hanin,ckgu2 kt skola,lcturer kt intec

and sume kwn yg aku knl

aku sayang korg k :)

xde gmbr laki kan???

hehe...

sayang bab tu,aku smpn dlm hati je la

time nk tlis ni,mngalir gk air mate mngenangkan dorg yg sgt aku rndu

huhu ='(

aku doa korg sume sihat,happy and slmt sntiase

cant wait to see u guys

lots of LOVE from me in Jordan ^__^