the forgettable me...always NOW and FOREVER

salam...

the title did sound weird a lil bit right?

but i know deeply the meaning of it

about me,i'm not the type of person who are easy to approach

so if i ever approach you first,then you are LUCKY :)

it doesnt meant that i dont know how to make friends

NO!nothing like that

it's just that,it's hard for people to know the real me

they always know the STRICT,SERIOUS me that they saw from outside

i always hear things like;

'owh,i didnt know that you are like that at all'

'you look different from the first time i saw and talk to you'

'why you look really cold from outside?"

yeah,hear it many times

it just that,i took longer time to become close with anyone new

but i do LOVE meeting NEW FRIENDS!

it's a fantastic thing!

i admit that i'm not the famous type of person

and i'm often forgotten by my friends

such like i dont exist

and they never bother to ask what my opinion

and always listen to what other people told about me

it hurts my feelings a lot

this kind of things has happen SO MANY TIMES before

ex: all my friends are discussing about going somewhere

and i said 'hey,i want to go too,let's go together!'

the others said: 'okay,that's cool!'

then other friends ask : 'hey,are u going there?i'm goin but on X day.the others are going on X days.u want to join me or them?'

i answer: 'i'll go with them'

tomorrow,the other friends ask again: 'are you going to that place?i'm  not going'

i said: 'i'm not going,sorry.i'll go on X days with others'

then suddenly,on X days,someone from the others call and asked me about a place in X place and i answer ' i dont know.hey,you guys are going to X place tomorrow or not?'

the others answer: 'we are already there la,eh,that person told me you dont want to go.'

BAM!the shocked of hearing that

i said: ' i never said that.i DO WANT TO GO!but with u guys,not here.i've told before,right??nevermind...'

the thing is,it never is nevermind with me

i DO CARE!they always treat me like that.saying that they forgot to ask me,or saying that they hear from someone else that i'm not going.why they never bother to CALL and CONFIRM it with me?

why hear from someone else?now that they already know how to go,just tossed me aside.like i'm an outsider,didnt exist at all

why i'm always being the one forgotten?

this thing happen so many time before.and it hurt my heart so much

MY FRIENDS,IF YOU REALLY DO CALL ME YOUR FRIEND,

PLEASE TREAT ME BETTER,DONT FORGET BOUT ME

AND JUST COME TO ME IF YOU WANT ANY FAVOR OR HELP

AND LET ME ALONE WHEN YOU GUYS ARE HAVING FUN

I'M HAVING MANY PROBLEMS BUT NONE OF U COME TO ME AND ASK ME IF ANYTHING IS WRONG WITH ME OR NOT

ARE YOU REALLY CONSIDERING YOURSELF AS MY FRIEND????

dont wanna say more,the rest is history

i'm FORGETTING and FORGIVING,

like what i ALWAYS DO..