trying to spend some free time,find a way to heal a heart

salam..

third update for today!

haha,what an accomplishment *yay to me!*

maybe it happens because i'm too excited with my new layout

*i cant stop viewing my blog like SERIOUSLY! it was just a blog! XD *

this is the early day of December..

still,there is no look of Syita coming through,just feeling a lil bit cold,cold like in Cameron Highland and not like at oversea,like in JORDAN,if you know what i mean *which i guess u didnt*

but pakcik told me that his place,back in United Kingdom has started snowing and he tell me that it's not good actually because you will feel freaking cold and stuff and i told him;

'oh,is that right?then i'm grateful it's not snowing here :) '

*pakcik is my old friend,practically several years older than me,we fight a lot and that's why i call him pakcik,to show him that he is after all,OLD.haha.*

just have finished checking out Yarmouk's students portal and checking out my exam's mark

especially for Mabadi Masorif Islami because my dear friend told me that our beloved Dr,give bonus mark to everyone so I try to check it out.my mark is good enough before this so practically Dr wont give me any bonus mark but then i saw it and BAM!

Dr do GIVE me EXTRA MARKS!!

and it means i got FULL MARKS!

alhamdulillah...

i'll try better after this,for imtihan thani,insyaALLAH...

from what i write,i look like i'm happy right?not much actually...

i'm practically DEPRESSED like crazy with my Ulum Quran's exam's marks

i'm sad because 'that person' are ignoring me without reasons,and have changed alot and i'm like, 

I DONT CARE ANYMORE ABOUT U,OK?EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT'S A LIE BECAUSE I JUST CARE!

and then,the real thing that have been affecting me alot this week,a news that shock me so much that it broke my heart.things that i really hope wont never happen.i didnt share about it with anyone at all because i'm afraid i'll cry like crazy so i'm just saying my prayer,hoping that everything will be okay,insyaALLAH...

ps:writing in english to improved my skills,which are not being used here AT ALL!

i just dont KNOW what to do,haha..

my feelings for now;