making memories

everyday that passed by,what have passed will never come back

but still,it'll stay forever somewhere,and we will always remember it

it's something called memories.

the good ones make us smile everytime

the bad ones will always make us feel sad 

but it's the one we rarely forget

because it's the one that taught us to be better

make us the person we are right now

memories,not too bad too have

but too precious too lose

because you are the only one that can hold on to it :)

Guilty As Ever

My lazy self couldnt find anything good to do sometimes. Yes, I'm lazy.

I'm feeling guilty for keep on doing the same things I have told myself not to do. It's like,the more I tried, it gets harder and the thing is calling for me more =_=" -the hardness of mujahadah-

I'm just hoping that Allah will continue giving me strength. I'm not strong. And I'm feeling extremely weak.



ps: last contact,27/4.almost a week already.try better!

Second Exam,Bismillah...

Yes,second exam will start,tomorrow.And yes,me,being me,is still lazying around after I've got my internet line back (happily and sadly because there is still 20 pages to study 0_o ).

Many things happened during first exam ( and I felt like crying a lot sometimes ) but being me, the hard-to-show-emotion-type-of-person, yes, I'm just acting normal :)

I need to do better. I can do better. I need to stop thinking things that are not the supposedly priority right now. I've more to think. I need to do more. I need to be closer to Allah MORE! :(

New determination, always everytime but still I'm doing the same..

Sabar Bila Susah,Bersyukur dan Berpada-pada Bila Senang

Assalamualaikum.This will supposedly be a really short entry.
Recently,ade sesetengah benda yg terlalu asyik menganggu gugat pemikiran aku ni.Sampaikan aku jadi tension.Dan diingatkan bila tension,aku cepat sakit.

Oh,teringat,tak jumpa doktor untuk check telinga lagi sebab takut darah and takut telinga berlubang lagi,GREAT!Bercampur dgn mslh sdia ada,rasa mcm dah setahun berlalu.Duduk Malaysia dua bulan terasa macam dah setahun.

Tapi yg pnting kena SABAR.Ujian sentiasa banyak.Kena banyakkan USAHA,SABAR,DOA dan TAWAKKAL pada ALLAH.Kalau dapat,bersyukur lah.X dapat pun,SABAR je la.Mungkin bukan masa dan rezeki kita.ALLAH tahu yg terbaik :)

Wassalam..

INTEC,UiTM Malaysia-Yarmouk University Jordan,Satu Perjalanan Part 1

Assalamualaikum everyone!Keifik?Keifkum?Bikheir insyaALLAH biiznillah,alhamdulillah...

Alhamdulillah,hari ni diberi peluang utk terus menaip,walaupun bukanlah menyampaikan apa-apa maklumat tp Rasullulah sendiri pernah berkata "Sampaikanlah walau sepotong ayat" so hari ni I just wanna share something with u guys.A little bit about my experiences,from INTEC for preparation program until to Yarmouk University,Jordan for my degree.

Biar aku berterus terang.Walaupun aku prgi luar negara,dapat scholarship from JPA tapi result SPM aku x straight A's pun.Rezeki daripada ALLAH dpt jugak JPA tu.And aku daripada sekolah kampung,sekolah luar bandar,sekolah dekat daerah yg result antara tercorot dekat Malaysia(not kidding ok) so awal2 tu masa dpt dekat INTEC and then kena buat krsus dkt situ 4 bulan,awal2 masuk,mmg dah rasa SUPER GILA RENDAH DIRI!Aku sorang budak sekolah aku yang smbung ke situ under JPA.Masa awal2 tu,time mula2 masuk rumah,ada 3 housemates.Semua straight A's,ada 2 org student Medic,roomate aku dentist.Semua sekolah whether SBPI,SMKA or anything sewaktu dengannya.Aku yg budak kampung,sekolah kampung ni rasa malu jugak la,sebut nama sekolah pun xde yg kenal or tahu.

Then bila masuk kelas,disebabkan aku ambik Islamic Banking,so ada satu kelas je utk prep prog tu.Lagi la terkejut bercampur rendah diri.Mostly budak straight A's weyh.Dengan result yg memang MasyaALLAH la.Ramai yg budak KISAS pulak tu.Mantap gile!Aku dah cuak,rasa nak lari balik je.Awal2 memang sangat sedih,kwan pun xde lg,yg lain dah la sume budak2 hebat.

Aku actually x sangka pun dapat Jordan ni.Aku mohon banyak gila scholarship.Yang lain sume aku letak account,satu je aku letak Islamic Banking,scholarship JPA.Tapi rezeki tu ALLAH tentukan.Maybe inilah yg trbaik kan.Aku x mint sgt pun nk prgi negara Middle East ni sbb bahasa arab aku lemah.Aku x berapa yakin nak ambik jurusan ada aliran agama.Yerlah,aku ni x perfect,byk lg yg kurang.Memang susah nak memantapkan diri supaya dapat membawa dan memegang tugas pljr agama dgn baik.Amanah dari ALLAH tu.

So dari situ bermulalah perjalanan aku.Perjalanan mengenali hidup,memperbaiki diri,menambah ilmu,belajar berdikari dan macam2 lagi.Pasal pengalaman lanjut kt INTEC aand Jordan,aku akan smbung lg yer.Wassalam..