Choices

In life,there are always several choices that you have to made.Sometimes you happy that you've made that decisions and sometimes you regret it.That's part of the journey.

Sometimes, when you have walked past all the choices that you've made,you'll look back and you'll think  back about all the reasons,the factors that lead you to make that decisions. As for me, the factors are many, some are because of my beloved ones (parents,family,friends,etc) and of course,because of Allah,surroundings play an important role too.

After two years in Jordan, I still cannot say whether I regret or happy that I've made the decision. I'm grateful for the fact that by going here, I've changed for better in many kind of ways, I've learned so many things I never even thinking of, I've got so many wonderful friends, have many wonderful memories, have the opportunity to visit so many countries already,have found tarbiyyah that indeed,something really valuable for me.

But by going here,there are several things I've come to regret I've done it. Let's just keep it to myself ^__^ I've done several things that I hope I can just turn back the time so it will never happened. Things that you never even imagine yourself doing it. Several things that make me sort of cries for days. Indeed, they are all valuable lessons. I've learned a lot from it.

There are positive and negative side and effect from my decision of going to Jordan. Alhamdulillah, I also learned how to let go,of things I thought I need to continue living ( haha, need? funny. I dont die even without it ) so that's life. I dont want to make choice, it was hard and painful. But in order to continue life, choices need to be done.

ps: if things dont change, I'll never make this choice. but things change, people change. sometimes we wonder, do people changed because of their surrounding or because of the years that gone by? and sometimes i felt like I'm the only one left behind :(