Fragile One

There are times when I felt like giving up. Putting a full stop on everything going on right now.
And actually,now is one of those times. Times when I feel too fragile, when everything that other people said, even the simplest thing could hurt so much. And I think I have most of it, the big emotional breakdown yesterday. Now I'm feeling better, but still, there are the leftover of those feelings.

Feelings when I feel like I'm the worst person on earth, I'm the most evil one, I'm the ugliest one, the most unworthiest one. Like I dont even know what is the real meaning in life. And I dont deserve any of the thing that I have now. And all those bad feelings. Like everyone is deceiving me,looking down me and hate me T_T

Ya Allah, I really ask for your forgiveness. I feel like an ungrateful person. I make everyone else around me worry me so much. And I'm feeling guilty. A lot. But I think I need to sit down. Think clearly. Allah is the one I'm seeking right now. And I hope I'll find the answer. The reassurance I'm really looking for.

Allah has plan,and His plan is the best. And He knows that by giving me these challenges, I'll be stronger.