Privating my blog.I feel like what I write is not,hurmm...how should I say it,not giving benefits to anyone?And yes,I'm feeling rather down lately and I dont have a place to write it down.I dont want to write all my miseries (cough,miseries?Haha..More like problems) for others to read.
The truth is, I dont like my conditions right now.I'm not in my completely hundred percents sound and healthy mind.I'm just going around without full motives.
This sem is really hard for me.I've learnt the pain of getting a very BAD marks,pain of letting go,pain of just keeping everything inside,pain of always feeling inferior of myself.I need to find myself.And I need to do it as soon as possible.
I watched around and everyone is moving forward, very fast and it feels like I'm the only one left behind. I dont do things that come straight from my heart anymore. I dont even know,what I'm feeling right now.
I'll turn to ALLAH.HE knows the answer to everything.HE will cures my heart,my problem.And I'll be fine,insyaALLAH.I just need some times,to be alone.
:)
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Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Malu..
Sometimes,malu kot dengan diri sendiri,orang lain dan yang paling penting,ALLAH.
Tengok kiri,tengok kanan,kawan semua baik-baik.
Malu tengok kawan2 yang dulu bukan sekolah agama,sekarang dah banyak sangat berubah.
Sampai kagum dengan perubahan dorang,lepas hati disentuh tarbiyyah :')
Itu lah indahnya tarbiyyah.
Tapi aku perasan,sejak nak mentarbiyyahkan hati dan diri ni,macam makin terjebak ke benda yg x sepatutnya.Jahiliyyah yang semakin kurang,tiba2 bertambah,makin susah ditinggalkan :'( *nangis lebat*
Takut sangat,takut ALLAH dah tutup hati.Takut hati dah buta.Dah x malu dengan dosa.Sedih sangat.. Yang pegang hati ALLAH,jadi hanya dapat mengadu agar ALLAH beri kekuatan,kekuatan utk berubah lebih baik.
Malu sangat dengan ALLAH,rasa nak sujud je dekat ALLAH xnak bangun2 dah.ALLAH dah bagi macam2.Dah banyak sangat.Tapi balasan aku kepada ALLAH x setimpal :(
-sedang mencari kekuatan diri-
Tengok kiri,tengok kanan,kawan semua baik-baik.
Malu tengok kawan2 yang dulu bukan sekolah agama,sekarang dah banyak sangat berubah.
Sampai kagum dengan perubahan dorang,lepas hati disentuh tarbiyyah :')
Itu lah indahnya tarbiyyah.
Tapi aku perasan,sejak nak mentarbiyyahkan hati dan diri ni,macam makin terjebak ke benda yg x sepatutnya.Jahiliyyah yang semakin kurang,tiba2 bertambah,makin susah ditinggalkan :'( *nangis lebat*
Takut sangat,takut ALLAH dah tutup hati.Takut hati dah buta.Dah x malu dengan dosa.Sedih sangat.. Yang pegang hati ALLAH,jadi hanya dapat mengadu agar ALLAH beri kekuatan,kekuatan utk berubah lebih baik.
Malu sangat dengan ALLAH,rasa nak sujud je dekat ALLAH xnak bangun2 dah.ALLAH dah bagi macam2.Dah banyak sangat.Tapi balasan aku kepada ALLAH x setimpal :(
-sedang mencari kekuatan diri-
Monday, February 6, 2012
Sem Baru
Iyer,aku sudah balik dari Spain dan Ireland.Baru lepas pulang dari jaulah bersama para akhawat yang sangat best ^__^
Am planning to write about the trip but cannot find the correct time or even time to do so because I'm lazy,enough said.
Sem baru dah start but still dont have the hundred percent mood to like really go on =_="
Kaki masih sakit akibat melecet time pakai kasut baru pergi jungle trekking dekat Ireland.
Trying to make decision about something so big :O
Particularly tired dealing with others who are so selfish and just care about themselves,truthfully said =_= =_="
Am planning to write about the trip but cannot find the correct time or even time to do so because I'm lazy,enough said.
Sem baru dah start but still dont have the hundred percent mood to like really go on =_="
Kaki masih sakit akibat melecet time pakai kasut baru pergi jungle trekking dekat Ireland.
Trying to make decision about something so big :O
Particularly tired dealing with others who are so selfish and just care about themselves,truthfully said =_= =_="
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