assalamualaikum....
it's been such a long time since the last time i've updated the blog
very busy with classes,exam,activities and such
before this,i've wrote about how dissapointed i am with one of my friends * now i prefer to consider her just as an acquaintance,not a friend anymore because friend dont ditch you,and lying about it*
sometimes it was really hard to understand your friend.
for example,this one friend of mine.she seems really nice to other and many people like her too
but when there just us,she sort of i dont know,maybe change?sometimes,what she do really hurt my feeling but i just bear with it.when i ask her about something,she answer with harsh tone,like angry tone.and when i do some mistakes,the way she pointed it,really hurt my feeling like 'how come you didnt even know how to do that?' or 'didnt anyone teach you how to do it?your mother didnt teach you?' and sometimes,just because i didnt bother to do something,just because i'm busy with exams or anything,she will said 'you are lazy' or 'i always have to do this,you never bother to do it' when the truth is,i did do it!but of course,there's no need for me to show it in front of her that i've done it.sometimes i didnt understand why she said that kind of hurtful words.she said some insulting things other than that too,but i didnt bother to write it down.and how she keep whining when she have to do or join something -_-
and when i didnt ask her to do it,and then she has to do it,she will be whining,said something bad about me under her breath,muttering about how lazy i am,da da da da.... do it with lots of noise just to annoy the hell out of me and make me realize it,and then when it all finish,just finish it all alone.i dont care that much because i dont ask her to do it and even when she's doing it for herself,just do it quietly and dont bother me ~_~
but yeah,others wont believe it because she didnt show that side to many people.but still,as a friend,i'm grateful that i've knew her,she's a good friend,have taught me lots of things,always pointed out my mistakes,and turn me to a better person.she's the type of friend that i would call 'love to hate'.i like and love her so much,especially when she didnt show other side of her,the dark side i would call it.all in all,people are different and have their own flaws.even me myself have my own flaws that my friends have to deal with.but truthfully,when u want to say something to a person,pointed out their mistake,better said it nicely.and if you dont want to do something,then just dont do it if you just do it to show how angry you are with your friend
being me,when i'm angry with my siblings,i will pointed it out,say it out loud but with friend,i will keep quiet and just forgive them.even if i point it out,i will point it out in my own discreet way so that it wont hurt their feelings because me myself dont like it when people pointed my mistake with harsh ways.
okay,now i feel better,i'm already forgiving her * like i said before,i love her so much so i wont stay mad at her for long,hehe* and i hope if she read this,just knew that i love her no matter what.i've already considered her as my friend and family but still,sometimes i need to write down about my disappointment and such
sorry for a little harsh words being used there.
huhu.i'm just a mere and normal human beings.i make mistakes
wassalam
