the ordinary me

salam....

the title....ermm,sometimes i dont know why,the title of my post are sort of the same.LAME ~_~

before this,there is post with title the unforgettable me etc etc

annoying la!why cant i came up with an interesting title like....ok,i dont know...if i know i wont came up with a LAME title,duh!

sorry,i think i keep babbling about myself non-stop and i dont know why.people will get boring

but still,this is my blog,the place for me to talk.why i choose that title????it's more because it's really who i am,without lying,i'm just ORDINARY.ordinary like the girl next door type

i'm not beautiful or clever.i dont have the angel-like solehah type of personality

my face is not fair clear skin type like snow white.i even have scars from pimples and acne

if u look at my face upclose,it was like the surface of moon,really,i'm not lying

pimples and acne really affect me alot,during high school and middle school because i've them for like FOREVER!it destroys my confidence.i always feel like i'm UGLY.i feel like people be friends with me because of pity.i never told anyone bout this but that's really how i feel.when i'm with my friends,i feel ashamed of myself,so many times even up until now.

i'm not skinny nor tall.i'm just 160cm in height and 5xkg in weight

my voice is not sweet,many people say bad things about my voice

like 'u're voice like a guy' or 'my ears feels hurt just by listening to your voice' and 'cant you keep your voice down?why are you always so noisy'

but the fact is,my voice is like that since i was born.not like i'm faking it.all the comments are hurtful and stayed with me until now.VOICE and ACNE are two things that i'm really sensitive about and can hurt me easily

people forget me easily because i'm really ordinary and boring.i'm not that cheerful and happy-go-lucky type of person.i take longer times to warm up to people and after peoples know me better,they are sometimes surprise with me because they expect me to be the nerdy,geeky,quiet type of person but really,big NO.i'm just SHY.that's all

other than that,people ALWAYS,i repeat,always JUDGE me before they even know me

like saying,i'm loud,lazy,dont cooperate and such when they dont even know me

i feel like smacking down all of them,huh!

so what if i'm NOT BEAUTIFUL,NOT CLEVER,NOT SKINNY,DONT HAVE SWEET VOICE,NOT A DAUGHTER TO SOMEONE RICH,DONT EVEN HAVE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF???

it's people around me that make me like this

but thanks to ALLAH,there are still lots of people who accept me the way i am

my UMI,ABAH,SIBLINGS,KAKTI,HARIZ,HAFIY,HIDAYAH,IZZATI,HANI,RAHIL,SARAH,PAU,HALIMAH,

NABIHAH,ALIA,FATIN,MARDIANASYAKIRAH,ARIF,NASRULLAH,PIJAN and some other more.thanks so much! i really do LOVE you guys so much <3