say ALHAMDULILLAH and SMILE =D

salam...

brtmu lg dan hari ni aku xnk buat entry brbaur sedih or negative

hari ni,nk cuba brfikir and rasa lbih positive!

yeah!hwaiting!

sjak dtg Jordan ni,mmg byk btul dugaan and masalah yg dtg

lps satu,satu lg mslh

tp mybe silap aku gak.after every musibah and problems,aku sptutnyer muhasabah diri aku

ape yg kurg and ape silap yg aku buat kan

lg byk mslh,lg dekat kita dgn ALLAH,btul x?

so,pd hari yg mulia ni,aku just nk ajk kite sume rmai2,ckp ALHAMDULILLAH

a very simple word but can bring a lot of differences to your day

dgn ckp ALHAMDULILLAH,kita akan kenang ape nikmat yg ALLAH bg kt kita hari ni

dpt bgun tidur,brnafas and masih hdup pn satu nikmat

sume bende yg ade kt skeliling kita adalah nikmat

mmg,time sush kita x nmpk smua tu

kita x nmpk ape yg lbih sbb sbuk mnilai ape yg kurg

and dont forget to SMILE =D

snyum and sengih lebar mcm kerang busuk smpai org pn naik mnympah tgk korg

HAHA

bler kita snyum,sbnrnyer scara x lgsg,mood pn jd lain skit

tp snyum tu biarlah IKHLAS

x ikhlas,sush gk kan

sblum undur diri,just nk pesan kt smua org and diri aku sndiri;

APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE TODAY BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WILL LOSE TOMORROW

AND SAY AGAIN,ALHAMDULILLAH...

SENYUM ITU SEDEKAH

ps: sush nk dpt pahala free,so,jom senyum =D

the forgettable me...always NOW and FOREVER

salam...

the title did sound weird a lil bit right?

but i know deeply the meaning of it

about me,i'm not the type of person who are easy to approach

so if i ever approach you first,then you are LUCKY :)

it doesnt meant that i dont know how to make friends

NO!nothing like that

it's just that,it's hard for people to know the real me

they always know the STRICT,SERIOUS me that they saw from outside

i always hear things like;

'owh,i didnt know that you are like that at all'

'you look different from the first time i saw and talk to you'

'why you look really cold from outside?"

yeah,hear it many times

it just that,i took longer time to become close with anyone new

but i do LOVE meeting NEW FRIENDS!

it's a fantastic thing!

i admit that i'm not the famous type of person

and i'm often forgotten by my friends

such like i dont exist

and they never bother to ask what my opinion

and always listen to what other people told about me

it hurts my feelings a lot

this kind of things has happen SO MANY TIMES before

ex: all my friends are discussing about going somewhere

and i said 'hey,i want to go too,let's go together!'

the others said: 'okay,that's cool!'

then other friends ask : 'hey,are u going there?i'm goin but on X day.the others are going on X days.u want to join me or them?'

i answer: 'i'll go with them'

tomorrow,the other friends ask again: 'are you going to that place?i'm  not going'

i said: 'i'm not going,sorry.i'll go on X days with others'

then suddenly,on X days,someone from the others call and asked me about a place in X place and i answer ' i dont know.hey,you guys are going to X place tomorrow or not?'

the others answer: 'we are already there la,eh,that person told me you dont want to go.'

BAM!the shocked of hearing that

i said: ' i never said that.i DO WANT TO GO!but with u guys,not here.i've told before,right??nevermind...'

the thing is,it never is nevermind with me

i DO CARE!they always treat me like that.saying that they forgot to ask me,or saying that they hear from someone else that i'm not going.why they never bother to CALL and CONFIRM it with me?

why hear from someone else?now that they already know how to go,just tossed me aside.like i'm an outsider,didnt exist at all

why i'm always being the one forgotten?

this thing happen so many time before.and it hurt my heart so much

MY FRIENDS,IF YOU REALLY DO CALL ME YOUR FRIEND,

PLEASE TREAT ME BETTER,DONT FORGET BOUT ME

AND JUST COME TO ME IF YOU WANT ANY FAVOR OR HELP

AND LET ME ALONE WHEN YOU GUYS ARE HAVING FUN

I'M HAVING MANY PROBLEMS BUT NONE OF U COME TO ME AND ASK ME IF ANYTHING IS WRONG WITH ME OR NOT

ARE YOU REALLY CONSIDERING YOURSELF AS MY FRIEND????

dont wanna say more,the rest is history

i'm FORGETTING and FORGIVING,

like what i ALWAYS DO..

what is considered as a MUSLIMAH @ SOLEHAH

salam...

tgk gmbr2 kt ats ni,comel2 je sume

ni la yg org slalu gmbrkan sbg WANITA SOLEHAH @ MUSLIMAH

aku punya ilmu x la brlmbak2

dan entry aku ni hanya lah utk sharekan my feeling

smtimes,there are several of my friends who always judge someone else based on;

ehem,APPEARANCE

apparently,if you wear 'tudung labuh','purdah' and 'baju kurung' all the time

you'll be labeled as Muslimah or Solehah

so,actually,do you judge people based on their appearance or personality???

aku mmg x perfect,tu aku akui

i've so many flaws and imperfections that sometimes i ashamed to look at myself

sbbnye,byk sgt kkurngn aku

aku jauh sgt dr gelaran2 tu

Muslimah or Solehah

but i try to change so that i can be in that category

aku try change luar and dlm

appearance and personalituy

but people around me is so judgemental that it's hard for me to change

kdg2 aku trase gk bler yg buat aku down and lemah semangat nk brubah

adalah kwn aku sndiri

some of them look at me,and said something about my appearance,what i wear

just want to tell,whatever i'm wearing in Jordan

are 2 times better than what i'm wearing in Msia

and sometimes,ader stgh kwn aku

bler tgk org pkai tdung lbuh,purdah sume,dorg tu Solehah

aku x nafikan,some of them really good

but kter tgk luar je,tahu ke kter ape yg ader kt dlm??

TUDUNG x mlmbgkan akhlak seseorg

BAJU KURUNG and PURDAH pn sme

some of them,x jg akhlak swjrnyer dgn imej yg dorg bwk

sbg mnusia,spe la kter nk judge org lain?

DONT EVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER

of course la,klau org tu baik,msti pnmpilan die pn sme

tp pnmpilan baik x smstinye akhlak baik

sbb tu aku x brni brubh hundred percents

tkot x istiqamah sbb brsme imej tu,aku kne tnjukkan akhlak yg baik skali

so pade sape2 yg suke judge org,TOLONG la jgn buat cmtu

tp pndg dorg ngn HATI TERBUKA!

kalau korg da memang BAIK,MUSLIMAH and SOLEHAH,

keep it up :)

aku bangga sangat2 tgk org cmtu

sbb aku nk sgt2 jd cmtu

korg yg trgolong dlm golongan tu lak

jgn pinggirkan org cam aku

jgn pndg rndah tp sme2 la ajk ktorng ke arah yg sama

arah yg benar,YANG DIREDHAI ALLAH...

insyaALLAH...

ps: no hard feelings k?

ni luahan hati aku je

PEACE NO WAR ^__^

it's really easy to pretend

salam..

it's already 12am,it means that now is a new day already

have class tomorrow,Markaz Lughoh and i still didnt finish the homework

dont have mood to do so

*sory Dr Ruba*

my status on fb are making some of my friends eager,wants to know what problem i really have

but the problem is,i cant tell them

even talk about it make me felt like crying

so i do what i do best

i PRETEND to be HAPPY :)

pretending is easy because up until now,no one know what's going on inside my heart

sometimes i feel like my heart hurt so much it might explodes!

so many things happened around me and i didnt know which one is worse or better than the other

i dont know what make me stay strong

maybe DOA from my parents

and my thoughts that always think,ALLAH knows the best for us

so for now,when i'm still okay,still can pretend and somehow hope the pretend will become a reality,

i want to:

say thanks to ALLAH for giving me ALL the things i have today;a wonderful parents,wonderful friends,a good and happy life and for giving me another day to live,to breathe

say thanks to ALLAH,because i still have all the things that i love,all the things that i care

say thanks to ALLAH for EVERYTHING he gave me

even the good things and some hardness

because that is the things that make who am i right now

THANKS ALLAH

* i'm not pretending this time,it really came from my heart*

trying to spend some free time,find a way to heal a heart

salam..

third update for today!

haha,what an accomplishment *yay to me!*

maybe it happens because i'm too excited with my new layout

*i cant stop viewing my blog like SERIOUSLY! it was just a blog! XD *

this is the early day of December..

still,there is no look of Syita coming through,just feeling a lil bit cold,cold like in Cameron Highland and not like at oversea,like in JORDAN,if you know what i mean *which i guess u didnt*

but pakcik told me that his place,back in United Kingdom has started snowing and he tell me that it's not good actually because you will feel freaking cold and stuff and i told him;

'oh,is that right?then i'm grateful it's not snowing here :) '

*pakcik is my old friend,practically several years older than me,we fight a lot and that's why i call him pakcik,to show him that he is after all,OLD.haha.*

just have finished checking out Yarmouk's students portal and checking out my exam's mark

especially for Mabadi Masorif Islami because my dear friend told me that our beloved Dr,give bonus mark to everyone so I try to check it out.my mark is good enough before this so practically Dr wont give me any bonus mark but then i saw it and BAM!

Dr do GIVE me EXTRA MARKS!!

and it means i got FULL MARKS!

alhamdulillah...

i'll try better after this,for imtihan thani,insyaALLAH...

from what i write,i look like i'm happy right?not much actually...

i'm practically DEPRESSED like crazy with my Ulum Quran's exam's marks

i'm sad because 'that person' are ignoring me without reasons,and have changed alot and i'm like, 

I DONT CARE ANYMORE ABOUT U,OK?EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT'S A LIE BECAUSE I JUST CARE!

and then,the real thing that have been affecting me alot this week,a news that shock me so much that it broke my heart.things that i really hope wont never happen.i didnt share about it with anyone at all because i'm afraid i'll cry like crazy so i'm just saying my prayer,hoping that everything will be okay,insyaALLAH...

ps:writing in english to improved my skills,which are not being used here AT ALL!

i just dont KNOW what to do,haha..

my feelings for now;

Kau Yang Aku Sayang ^__^

 salam..

asal tbe2 tjuk cmtu kan?

mcm pelik je

ni bknnyer post utk ltk gmbr laki,pastu aku tulis,

'aku cinta dia'bagai

x bnr sme skali

aku bkn bgitu

tp post ni utk mngingati org2 yg aku syg 

yg sangat2 aku RINDU

yg mostly nyer ade kt Malaysia

so,jom kter countdown

 

 ok,ni adk aku n aku

adk aku,hanis yg smemangnyer sgt2 aku SAYANG

aku ngn dy mmg rpt sbb jrk umur pn dkt

beza 2 thn je

mmg snyi sgt kt Jordan ni sbb die xde

aku sntiase doa die g Jordan gk satu hari nty

haha

bler aku kt cni,aku rsau klu die rpt ngn org lain kt Msia

jeles taw!

 haha,yg cntik jelita dlm gmbr pkai bju ungu ni akk sdara aku

aku pnggil kakti

name dy natasya noordin

spupu yg sgt2 aku SAYANG gak

aku ngn die mmg rpt dr kcik,wpun jrak umur ktorng 5 thn

time aku nk fly,die brsush payah dtg airport

mmg aku trharu gler

aku rndu sgt nk bork2 ngn die

huhu

 ni pulak gmbr family aku

aku sgt RINDU and SAYANG each one of them

spnuh hati aku

dorg la sumber kkuatan aku

tnpe dorg,aku bole MATI

serius ni

hehe...

 ni lak gmbr aku ngn cousin2 aku

haha

msty korg plik,knp byk sgt gmbr aku ngn fmily?

xde kwn ke?

bkn xde tp aku ni family type of person 

so fmily no 1 b4 kwn yer

cuzzy aku,yg mmg aku syg and rindu

x sbr nk jmpe korg blik taon dpn

 ni lak,gmbr ank2 murid aku

aku prnh mngajar pas spm aritu

dlm sbulan lbih

aku rndu sgt kt dorg ni

aku jnji nk jmpe dorg blik b4 fly tp x smpt nk tunaikan jnji tu

sory sgt!!

ni lak,bestfriend aku sjk kcik

bestfriend aku dnia akhirat

aku knl die sjk aku mule knl dunia

ni bkn statement hiperbola tp mmg bnr sbnr-bnrnyer

tringt time gdo2

mse kcik dulu

haha

wlau paper pn jd,aku sgt sayang kt die

nur hidayah binti suhaidi

aku x smpt jmpe die sgt b4 fly

tp insyaALLAH,aku akan luangkan byk mse ngn die

bler blik brcuti nty

 ni lak,nor izzati bt jahini

lg sorg bestfren aku yg amat2 la aku syg

yg x prnh mnghampakan aku

slalu dgr kluh kesah aku

pdhl aku,slalu xde time die sdih

zati,sory!!

whatever hppen,i still love u la :)

 ni lak,siti nur halimah bt md khair

roomate aku slame 4 bln kt INTEC

die skrg blaja kt Mesir,Dentistry

and aku lak kt Jordan

sdih sgt kne brpisah ngn die

aku syg gler2 roomate aku yg baik and comel ni

rndu nk brgosip ngn die

die pn slalu dgr kluh ksh aku

mmg trbaik r emah =D

 ni lak nabihah mokhtar

org kedua aku knl kt INTEC

blaja kt Jordan gk

wpun x sme kls mahu pn rumah,tp aku ttp syg kt die

xtaw nape

x kesah r klu dy x syg aku pn

yg pnting,aku sayang die ^__^

 ni lak gmbr aku ngn kwn2 skola menengah aku

yg brsame aku brjuang slame 5 thn

kt tgh tu ustazah pndidikan syariah islamiah aku,

ustazah salmiah

ustzh mmg best sgt,keibuan

rndu ustzh!

dr kiri tu,rahil,kirah,ustzh,aku n sarah

rahil,kirah n sarah mmg bestfren aku kt skola mngh

antre org pling aku syg r kt skola tu

=D

 ni gmbr kt Jordan,kt Yarmouk Uni

ni lak kwn2 MEC aku yg aku knl kt INTEC

mmg aku sgt2 la SAYANG dorg sume ni

dorg da mcm fmily aku

lg2 bler kt Jordan ni

dr kiri,nabilah,aku,daia,radiah,najihah,syera,aqilah n afi

 ni pn kwn2 MEC aku

gmbr time kt INTEC,dpn KOLEJ CEMARA

rndu gler kt INTEC

gmbr b4 dis xde sume org

ni hmpir sume org ader

yg xde dlm gmbr b4 dis,alia and teng and mardiana

ni r classmate 5 karomah aku

mmg aku sgt sayang ngn dorg

most of them classmate aku sjk form 1

da lmer aku x jmpe dorg

time ni ader jmuan kls

bler lg la nk jmpe dorg pasni

rndu nyer aku kt korg!!!

ni lak,org yg dah jg aku sjk aku kcik

aku pnggil die mak

mak ni nanny aku

die jg aku bler umi*mak aku* g keje

mmg aku rapat gler2 ngn mak

time nk fly,mmg mnangis gler time ngn mak

*pdhl ngn umi pn x mngis cmtu*

wah,mak,hanum rindu gler

nk mkn mknn mak msk!

scare x lgsg,tamat la snarai aku

sbnrnyer,rmai lg org yg aku syg

tp aku x jmpe gmbr n x smpt nk mntion

antrenyer adk ezma,arep,pijan,nas,hani,miss hanin,ckgu2 kt skola,lcturer kt intec

and sume kwn yg aku knl

aku sayang korg k :)

xde gmbr laki kan???

hehe...

sayang bab tu,aku smpn dlm hati je la

time nk tlis ni,mngalir gk air mate mngenangkan dorg yg sgt aku rndu

huhu ='(

aku doa korg sume sihat,happy and slmt sntiase

cant wait to see u guys

lots of LOVE from me in Jordan ^__^

New Layouts!Suke2 =D

salam..

aku skrg ngh trsengih mcm kerang busuk sbbnyer~~~
blog aku da brtukar wajah ngn sgt comelnyer!

i like :)

aku da lmer tnggu saat2 ni,utk blog aku brtukar wajah,haha XD

*bunyi mcm tipu tp mmg btol*

sory r,bab2 blogging ni aku mmg lmbab sikit

so klu tgk blog aku xde gadjet and hudoh smcm,jgn komen paper r

lg pn,blog ni just utk aku kngsi story sume n x prlu ader byk2 bnde,srbut n aku x reti nk gne pn =_='

awal bln so intrnet laju balik!

HAPPY!!!!

tp x baper hepy sbb dah dpt mrkah Ulum Quran and markah sgt hampeh ='(

TAK SUKE!!!

xnk share sbb x bg taw kt my mum lg

tp mrkah Mabadi Masorif okay,alhamdulillah....

ps:msih sdih with everything that happen,huhu...