sometimes we have to let go

salam..

recently i realized,that sometimes we have to face a really hard choice

and sometimes we have to let go,even though we love that thing so much

the more we love it,the more it destroys us.it usually happened like that

and we were always given a choice,a very hard one to choose

lately,i've been faced with a choice and it really broke my heart to make a choice

but it have to be make for my own good so i decided to do it but i cant lie that i'm not feeling sad

because the choice that i make,even think about it make my heart hurt ='(

maybe this is the best thing to do =)

think positive!

LET GO....

TIME WILL HEAL EVERYTHING,INSYAALLAH

I'M STRONG AND I KNOW I CAN DO IT

DONT STAY SAD..

INSYAALLAH,BIIZNILLAH

THIS IS THE BEST CHOICE

words that really hurts my heart

salam...okay,i dont know why but i kept repeating my title using the word 'words'

haha,it seems like there are no other word existed,okay,another 'word' there.point taken

*that means your vocabulary is low,dush*

actually,this was supposed to be a kinda sad post but because of my ramblings up there,it turn out kinda funny??? 0_o 

lately,i really meant to write about this thing but didnt have the gut/time/heart to do so but i thing i need to write it up because sometimes it's driving me crazy

but i'm feeling guilty because it's like talking bad about your friend

okay,secret reveal,i'm going to talk about my friend

i do love this one particular friends,i REALLY REALLY DO LOVE HER *write in capital to make it sound more realistic*

it's just that....i dont like the way she talk to me.full stop

i dont like it because the way she talk sometimes really hurt my feeling.it didnt happened all the time,sometimes only but the sometimes things is hurting my feeling more and more from day to day

i'm not perfect so maybe i also hurt her feelings sometimes

but sometimes i realized that all people have also start realizing about it

and there is also a particular sentence that she said that really hurt my heart *and make me cry,more than once 0_o i know,i'm GEDIK*

and sometimes,she cut down when i said or dont want to accept my opinion or sometimes her sentences are belittling my ability or knowledge about something

and she makes me look like the bad person =_='

okay,i really am not a good person but sometimes the judging eyes of people hurt my feeling more

haish,people who knows me for long knew that i dont tell that person if she/he hurt my feeling

that is me.and i'm sensitive with word.u can hit me with your hand but if u hit me with your words,it will be harder to forget

hmmm....no matter what,i still love this particular friend,when she dont treat me like that

and i forgive all things she did that hurt my feeling.forgive and forget...

hah,after writing it down,i feel better.no hard feeling after all so after this,i wont think about this matter anymore.maybe just talk to my bestfriend to share about it but that's all,nothing else =D

nothing else to say,wassalam....

words dont come out but the heart does feel...

salam...
the second week of second sem has passed by,okay so far
so far so good,yeah,kinda but urghh,i dont like the fact that there is new building for Economic Faculty,so far away and on Monday and Wednesday,i have a class at Syariah Faculty straight after class at the so-called new Economic building
so after my Mathematical Economics class,i run like crazy to my next class and i arrived at the next class looking like crazy people *haha,my opinion only,other people dont even realize*

lately,i dont know why but my spirit is kinda down
i meant,i was always,i repeat,ALWAYS thinking about going back to Malaysia and just continue my study there.heh,silly thinking right?i was skyping*oho,skyping,new English term 0_o * with my mum and was telling her, 'i wanna go back,i dont like it here.if only i know,i would just continue my study in Malaysia* and my mum just keep silent and try to lift my spirit
i think i was being like GEDIK, i dont meant a thing that i said
i like Jordan,i do LIKE it.maybe because i'm not feeling well,and when u are far away from family,u are feeling like that
i'm afraid i'm making my mum worry with my constant whining =__='

yeah,on the outside,i seem strong but there is so many days and time when i feel like just giving up
stop doing what i'm doing now
sometimes i feel like screaming but in the end,i still move on
because i have faith,i have ISLAM,i have ALLAH and i have all people that love me by my side,always supporting me,alhamdulillah...

so,till we meet again!
wassalam....

despicable me,urghh =_='

salam..

why the title is like that?it's because its true,i'm despicable and sometimes i even despise myself =='

wanna know why?it's because i keep on repeating the same old mistake

i'm feeling guilty to all people around me sometimes because all the sins that i've done

i really hope i would change for better

i dont want to continue being like this

sometimes,we dont even realize about the sins that we do because it was part of our routined life

bad right?sometimes,people around us all do it so we didnt realize that it was a sins

like our aurat,how we interact with the opposite gender,our attitude with parents,family and friends

i've done so many mistake and if only i could revert it all ='(

everyone do mistake but things became worse if we keep repeating it

sadly,i always do that

i pray that ALLAH will give me strength to change,to become a better person in everything that i do

insyaALLAH

Mesir=Egypt!!! Piccies,Gambar2!!! Semua ni before rusuhan yer =)

byk lg gmbr tp mls nk upload,in the future maybe

malas nk buat caption

the pics speak for itself i think

Mesir is wonderful

hope to go there again after everything settle down,insyaALLAH

jeles x tengok pyramids behind me?hehe

another random thoughts

1. rasa marah mendadak tibe2 sbb rumete aku dpt prgi berjalan *padahal ke Irbid Mall je,whattheheck aku ni* and menyesal x ikut time dia ajak and sekarang tengah breakfast sambil tahan marah lagi and still rasa nak cakap,'what the heck,sabo la makcik'

2. baru lepas breakfast dengan Nesvita perasa coklat yang mak aku send aritu.nak cepat2 abiskan,xnk membazir

3. masih nak meneruskan study bab 1 utk subjek Madhol Ila Tasyri' yang asyik tertangguh,nampak sangat aku sangat pemalas T_T

4. masih risau dengan kawan2 dan kenalan dekat Mesir.risau keselamatan dorang,risau bile dorg dapat balik Jordan dan Malaysia.doa je lah carenye.RINDU korang sume sangat2!!!huhu...

5. asal bangunan baru kuliah iqtisod jauh sangat??asal x buat dekat Amman terus ke,lagi sonang idup den.haish.DONT LIKE betul lah

6. baru sedar umur aku dah 19 tahun 0_o aku dah tua yer semua orang!nenek aku dah ada 4 orang anak time ni ~_~

7. aku tibe2 terjumpa facebook abang angkat aku time form 2 dulu and dia kat Mesir sekarang.ahhh!! risau lg T_T

8. baik aku sambong study sekarang,lagi berfaedah.so bye~~

wassalam....

random thoughts

random thoughts that passed my mind just now;

1. i love stalking other peoples blog.i mean,really really LOVE!reading and stalking without them knowing,that's heaven

2. i'm so sad with what happening in MESIR right now because many of my friends still there,still not going back to Jordan and some of my friends who study there still in danger

3.more sad because cannot contact my dear old friend.ALIFAH LIYANA who is studying at Mansoura,she's private student.i'm damn worried now =='

4. happy for a while because i'm able to contact my dear friend and roomate at INTEC,Halimah Khair.she is studying at Tanta,dentistry.but then feeling like worried to death after listening to their condition and state right now

5.i'm irritated at first when i learnt that there is new building for Economy subjects and faculty.and not to mention it was really-really far

6. want to drop subject but didnt know which one